the dream and the deception

by the aquadolls

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1.
hollywood 03:20
mama told me that someday i’d be a star if i believe in myself, i’d go really far all my life you pushed and pushed on me hoping that someday i would become something but all i wanna see is my name up in shiny lights in hollywood and all i wanna feel is the sun shining down my back in hollywood i wanna turn on the television and see my music video playing on mtv i’d have a celebration and make sure that you’re there cuz i know that you always cared you always cared but all i wanna see is my name up in shiny lights in hollywood and all i wanna feel is the sun shining down my back in hollywood i always knew that if i followed my heart i could make you proud you knew from the very start the very start but all i wanna see is my name up in shiny lights in hollywood and all i wanna feel is the sun shining down my back in hollywood and all i wanna see is your face smiling back at me in hollywood and all i want you to know is that i did this for you to make you proud of me in hollywood credits
2.
euphoria 04:42
There’s a tingling inside my body I feel in running through my veins My heart is beating like an earthquake I know I’m not alone I can’t be The only one who feels this way My pulse is rushin’ like a roulette With your faults, and my faults How did we ever get this far We fall down, get back up I promise you’re a shining star Up in the sky so high on life in love with myself and i’m good Yeah I’m in love with myself and I’m good Can’t stop this feeling, yeah it’s rushing through my veins And once it hits my brain I feel a little more sane I’m good, yeah I’m in love with this Euphoria It doesn’t always come so easy Some times I wanna blow my brains outside of the park on a Monday I remind myself to open my eyes Not everything I see is good But that’s the whole point of life With your faults, and my faults How did we ever get this far We fall down, get back up And dust yourself off Up in the sky so high on life in love with myself and i’m good Yeah I’m in love with myself and I’m good Can’t stop this feeling, yeah it’s rushing through my veins And once it hits my brain I feel a little more sane I’m good, yeah I’m in love with this Euphoria Up in the sky so high on life in love with myself and i’m good Yeah I’m in love with myself and I’m good Can’t stop this feeling, yeah it’s rushing through my veins And once it hits my brain I feel a little more sane I’m good, yeah I’m in love with this Euphoria
3.
ruby eyes 02:35
all i wanna do is be your girl and all i wanna do is smile every time you come around but then i get tired and weak, no energy and then i wanna quit, give you up in time but i can’t cuz now im in too deep can’t swim around it, im in defeat cuz now im falling way too fast for those little ruby eyes little ruby eyes all i wanna do is light you up, my love and all i wanna feel is the pain inside melt away but when im with you you’re the poison oak that stings you give me life, then in minutes it all fades away cuz now im in too deep can’t swim around it, im in defeat cuz now im falling way too fast for those little ruby eyes little ruby eyes oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh cuz now im in too deep can’t swim around it, im in defeat though i am falling way too fast you can’t have a future when you’re looking back i need to breathe you in for a little peace it’s only temporary, a small release i wanna stop but i can’t give up on those little ruby eyes little ruby eyes little ruby eyes those little ruby eyes
4.
perfect 02:34
bleach blonde beauty queen lickin her lips the reflection in her mirror smiles back daydreams of hollywood and big shiny lights she longs for glamorous days and star-studded nights put your glitter on it’s gonna happen, tell yourself it’s gonna happen put your smile on it’s gonna happen, tell yourself it’s gonna happen cuz she’s always been told no, no, no but soon, she’ll be the star of the show, show, show put your perfect on it’s gonna happen, tell yourself it’s gonna happen bleach blonde beauty queen looks back on her past she would sing her songs followed by a monstrous laugh mascara would run down her pretty lil face light a cigarette, pain is all in the past put your glitter on it’s gonna happen, tell yourself it’s gonna happen put your smile on it’s gonna happen, tell yourself it’s gonna happen cuz she’s always been told no, no, no but soon, she’ll be the star of the show, show, show put your perfect on it’s gonna happen, tell yourself it’s gonna happen put your glitter on it’s gonna happen, tell yourself it’s gonna happen put your smile on it’s gonna happen, tell yourself it’s gonna happen cuz she’s always been told no, no, no but soon, she’ll be the star of the show, show, show put your perfect on it’s gonna happen, tell yourself it’s gonna happen tonight
5.
im a star 01:03
im a star im a star im a star star star im a star im a star im a star star star hey!
6.
tell me what you want what you wanna see what you wanna get out of me and everywhere i go everything i do has to be okay with you but now, i’m sick and tired of my energy being wasted on you i gotta be myself let me do me and you can do you i know you want me to be as perfect as i can be but i gotta do my own thing (own thing) i’m an individual also irreplaceable so just let me do my own thing (own thing) la di da da da di da da da dada gotta do my own thing (own thing) la di da da da di da da da dada just let me do my own thing (own thing) every single night every single day i’m fighting this war in my brain but i’ll suck it up think that it’s okay laugh it off my head has gone insane and when you think of me I want you to see all the time I wasted on you I gotta be myself let me do me and you can do you, oh! i know you want me to be as perfect as i can be but i gotta do my own thing (own thing) i’m an individual also irreplaceable so just let me do my own thing (own thing) la di da da da di da da da dada gotta do my own thing (own thing) la di da da da di da da da dada just let me do my own thing (own thing) my, my own thing, hey ey oh oh oh i know you want me to be as perfect as i can be but i gotta do my own thing oh oh oh oh i know you want me to be as perfect as i can be but i gotta do my own thing (own thing) i’m an individual also irreplaceable so just let me do my own thing (own thing) la di da da da di da da da dada gotta do my own thing (own thing) la di da da da di da da da dada just let me do my own thing (own thing) hey ey
7.
Flickin’ my pale blonde hair through my hands I’m thinking about you Lickin' my cherry lips, I see our toes in the sand My fingertips on you I’m pretty sure that you’re insecure, But I can try to make you feel complete You know I’m bad, but baby don’t be sad I promise you’ll be hanging on the edge of your seat Could you ever love a girl like me? A pretty little mess me If I put my painted fingers on you, you’ll be mine I’ll be your troubled valentine, oh La la la la la la la la la Oh oh oh oh oh La la la la la la la la la Oh oh oh oh oh Laying in bed with high heels on I’m thinking about you In the mirror I put mascara on, but always waterproof Cuz you don’t know, in fact, I never show That every night I cry myself to sleep You know I’m bad, but baby don’t be sad I promise we can make each other feel complete Could you ever love a girl like me? A pretty little mess me If I put my painted fingers on you, you’ll be mine I’ll be your troubled valentine, oh La la la la la la la la la Oh oh oh oh oh La la la la la la la la la Oh oh oh oh oh Could you ever love a girl like me? A pretty little mess me If I pull on your strings, will you be mine? I’ll be your dirty angel pie, oh Could you ever love a girl like me? A pretty little wild child just like me If I put my painted fingers on you, you’ll be mine I’ll be your troubled valentine, oh La la la la la la la la la Oh oh oh oh oh La la la la la la la la la Oh oh oh oh oh credits
8.
bleach 03:23
heartbreaker, move it or lose it, before i lose my shit you tried to run off with the pieces of my heart but you ran too slow, so i catch up with it stomach bender, you make me sick fucked me up once, didn’t have to think twice to end it all say its done be a dick then be nice fake it and lie and pretend were as cool as ice yeah right i’m gonna make sure that you bleed like i bled swallow the words you said life in torture’s worse than being dead cut the shirts you lent me into crop tops yeah, i’ll knock your socks off (with a blow torch instead) fucking with you’s worse than being dead a heart breaker’s favorite beverage is ice cold bleach with a side of bitch and a shot of whine served on ice, neat! it’s mighty fine the way you feel with you drink it down you okay? what’s with the frown? legs upside down, now you’re on the ground wake up hon’ you’ve had a long, long rest while you were out, i did something to your head i cut tiny little pieces of your heart right out of your chest now every time you think of me, you won’t forget, no i’m gonna make sure that you bleed like i bled swallow the words you said life in torture’s worse than being dead cut the shirts you lent me into crop tops yeah, i’ll knock your socks off (with a blow torch instead) fucking with you’s worse than being dead fuck you, you piece of shit you think you’re hot, but you aren’t shit not even flies and maggots would flock to you grosser than the bottom of my beat up shoe scum and dirt, a rat at best you wear lace thongs underneath your dress do you even have a heart beating in your chest? vomit and bile, you’re vile at best! a scaredy-cat douche bag, you turned out like the rest look in the mirror, can’t you tell you’re a mess? yeah you wrecked it, how could i forget it the deed is done, no way to fix it i can’t believe i ever fucked with you you’re a crazy little chicken who escaped from the coup wastoid junkie sitting on a fence tryna make a dollar out of fifteen cents (fart noise) i’m gonna make sure that you bleed like i bled swallow the words you said life in torture’s worse than being dead cut the shirts you lent me into crop tops yeah, i’ll knock your socks off (with a blow torch instead) fucking with you’s worse than being dead la dee da dee da la dee da dee da ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
9.
blurry 02:58
i feel so many emotions i can’t put them all on paper (oh oh oh oh oh) if you feel the same way, find me now, i’ll thank you later (oh oh oh oh oh) freaky like a fox, slimy like an alligator i said i wanna kick it but you said you’re not a dater go figure player, player (oh oh oh oh oh) i keep sipping on the liquor and it goes down quicker (oh oh oh oh oh) while i’m all alone drowning all my thoughts out (oh oh oh oh oh) in this jack and coke, cloud my head with jokes fill my lungs with smoke, and get blurry blurry get blurry get blurry get blurry get blurry, blurry, get blurry oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh get blurry, blurry, get blurry laying in my bed in the dark at six o’clock (oh oh oh oh oh) you don’t wanna come around the mess you left behind, no (oh oh oh oh oh) cloud my head with jokes fill my lungs with smoke chase that drink with coke and get blurry, blurry get blurry get blurry get blurry get blurry, blurry, get blurry oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh get blurry, blurry, get blurry hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey get blurry, blurry, get blurry oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh get blurry, blurry, get blurry hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey hey get blurry, blurry, get blurry
10.
toy 02:53
Late at night, I’m all alone Stretched out in bed, nobody’s home So I call you up on the phone (my toy) Come on down, I’m in a rush To make myself get that rush With you, oh hush, let’s go Dance alone in my bedroom My shining toy’s kisses shoot me to the moon I’m having the best time ever I wanna stay like this forever Only with you have I felt so good My shining toy, better than anyone could I’m looking in your eyes and it feels just right This could forever, but forever is just tonight Friday was fun, but now I’m bored with you Find me a toy shiny and new Hey baby, wanna get used? (my toy) Give me a fix, bring me back up No strings attached on this puppet That’s what I like best about you Now don’t be shy, you are my muse Dance alone in my bedroom My shining toy’s kisses shoot me to the moon I’m having the best time ever I wanna stay like this forever Only with you have I felt so good My shining toy, better than anyone could I’m looking in your eyes and it feels just right This could forever, but forever is just tonight Dance alone in my bedroom My shining toy’s kisses shoot me to the moon I’m having the best time ever I wanna stay like this forever Only with you have I felt so good My shining toy, better than anyone could I’m looking in your eyes and it feels just right This could forever, but forever is just tonight
11.
just4kicks 03:11
quit wasting all your time on me i’m not falling for you pick your jaw up off the floor please you’re not any good news i know you do this just for kicks just to fuck with us girls but we won’t take your shit we’ll laugh at you and you can go sing the blues la la la la la la la la la la la la la la oh lover boy i see you feeding through your eyes but it’s not worth my time i am not a toy to be picked up and played with and put down really not amused in fact, i’m quite pissed off that you whistled at me it’s not a compliment if i feel creeped out and wanna punch you in the face quit wasting all your time on me i’m not falling for you pick your jaw up off the floor please you’re not any good news i know you do this just for kicks just to fuck with us girls but we won’t take your shit we’ll laugh at you and you can go sing the blues la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la
12.
sick sad motherfuck sick sad motherfuck sick sad motherfuck sick sad motherfuck i can’t live with this depression too much anger too much stress and too much pressure, go away yet i want it all to stay feeling weak, dumb, pathetic easy to lose your head in it i don’t deserve all this sadness i don’t deserve all this sadness
13.
in my pocket 04:40
You seem like the perfect candidate to break my heart It’s masochistic, I knew you would hurt me from the start I keep slipping into daydreams where were laying in your room And we’re playing songs together on guitar, my moody muse I’ve never seen a smile so true it glows And I know we just met, but I wanna take your soul home with me In my pocket, Your hands are there In my pocket, So good we’ll make the people stare In my pocket, I’ll hold onto your heart and keep it safe In my pocket, To store your love, there’s no better place I hope you don’t get sick of my face But first and foremost, we should go on a date Oom pa pa, oom pa pa, oom pa pa di da oom pa pa hm I keep checking on my phone to see if it’s you I know you’re not the type of guy to show your feelings first, But it’s worse when you build walls up It hurts, but I knew from the beginning that this feeling would burst I’m sick of being someone else’s secret I gave my all to them and we fell apart I’m crazy, fall fast, die young, live forever You’re a stranger to me I wanna get to know you better In my pocket, Your hands are there In my pocket, So good we’ll make the people stare In my pocket, I’ll hold onto your heart and keep it safe In my pocket, To store your love, there’s no better place I hope you don’t get sick of my face But first and foremost, we should go on a date Oom pa pa, oom pa pa, oom pa pa di da oom pa pa hm Ooh ooh ooh Ooh ooh ooh Ooh ooh In my pocket, Your hands are there In my pocket, So good we’ll make the people stare In my pocket, I’ll hold onto your heart and keep it safe In my pocket, To store your love, there’s no better place than In my pocket, Your hands are there In my pocket, So good we’ll make the people stare In my pocket, I’ll hold onto your heart and keep it safe In my pocket, To store your love, there’s no better place I hope you don’t get sick of my face But first and foremost, we should go on a date Oom pa pa, oom pa pa, oom pa pa di da oom pa pa hm credits
14.
cigboi 02:33
when i hit you up, you don’t text back you won’t even open up my snap every time i smell a cigarette i think of you and how you’re gone you like the 90’s and i dig your style but you’re not down to go the extra mile maybe someday, you will realize i could have been the one i keep on beating myself up not what i intended to do, but i got a bad case of real tough luck i keep on beating myself up it’s an illusion, i know i can do better, but i want you so bad and you don’t want me, tough luck i tried to snatch you up, i did my best i even followed all the stupid steps batting my eyelashes, playing hard-to-get, acting like i don’t care that wasn’t me, i swear i didn’t want to fuck it up, but now the deed is done who’s hand am i gonna hold now? oh god i keep on beating myself up not what i intended to do, but i got a bad case of real tough luck i keep on beating myself up it’s an illusion, i know i can do better, but i want you so bad and you don’t want me, tough luck i keep on beating myself up it’s an illusion, i know i can do better, but i want you so bad and you don’t want me, tough luck
15.
the mess 05:16
truly i am something special with my greasy hair and scabbed knees to open my eyes to everything and take it in for all that it seems all that it seems i make wishes, i make wishes every night at the same time, waiting for something good to happen i’m unlucky, i’m unlucky every time and now i’m broke sleeping all alone every night got no money, i got no money left, but i hope i get by rather be broke and happy, than get rich and die inside but yet i die inside you don’t know, you don’t know the mess that i’m in dig me out, dig me out i don’t wanna go back again got nothing left, nothing left but a pocket full of memories i pull them out, pull them out but never find peace what is special to your belief? the dollar signs, or the hole that you sleep in side of us all, inside of us all, inside of us all you don’t know, you don’t know the mess that i’m in if i was gone, if i was gone, would anyone give a shit? got nothing left, nothing left but a pocket full of memories i pull them out, pull them out but never find peace no, no i don't
16.
meetme 05:26
hey there, your eyes looked good in the light at the concert do you wanna hurt me? i could read your mind from the way you smiled it was so obvious, i knew that you liked me ooh, liked me you’re not from this scene you’re a gem caught between all the other squares let’s go see a movie but you’re a cool guy and you’ve got a life you’re busy with your work and school but all i do is think of you you, of you, all i do is think of you i wish i had super powers to make you communicate the truth no matter the circumstances i just want someone to be real with me for once in my life, this little hand of mine ain’t gonna hold itself tonight come make this right and meet with me tonight tonight, although nothing’s wrong, come make this right and meet me ever since the first night that we met i think of you every fucking day, i’m crazy and when you don’t text me back right away i think that you’re fucking with somebody else i’m nuts i’m nuts, oh oh i’m nuts, nuts it’s been a whole day since we talked and i sent that double message, so i gotta wait for you now this stupid game sucks, i just wanna go out on a date with you, but there’s too much going on for you for you, there’s too much going on for you, and you’re just so busy i wish i had super powers to make you communicate the truth no matter the circumstances i just want someone to be real with me for once in my life, this little hand of mine ain’t gonna hold itself tonight come make this right and meet with me tonight tonight, although nothing’s wrong, come make this right and meet me
17.
Do you like me or do you even care About me at all? I still haven’t washed the underwear I wore when we hooked up outside my house in your Car after the concert, we didn’t get far Did I seem like an amateur? I didn’t know what to Do, I was so nervous It was because I liked you But I’d rather have awkward convo than hook up with you I guess it’s kinda fun, but all I can think is how All I really want is somebody to talk to All I really want is somebody to talk to All I really want is somebody to talk to All I really want is somebody Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah Communication is sexy, I don’t know how to communicate Dating sucks, it’s a fucked up world, no one ever asks me out on dates I know I’m fine It’s not me, but its me, it’s me It’s fucking me I know I need to spend more time by myself Love myself, gotta love me, but All I really want is somebody to talk to All I really want is somebody to talk to All I really want is somebody to talk to All I really want is somebody Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah All I really want is somebody to talk to All I really want is somebody to talk to All I really want is somebody to talk to All I really want is somebody Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
18.
burns2ash 03:24
i was too afraid of saying the wrong things so i just kept my mouth shut but when you don’t say anything at all that’s when they start to let you go but how would i know? it’s all a test i feel like i always second guess but love’s a joke with no chance to laugh before it all burns into ash i like you, but i don’t know how to say it without making you go away i’m a rose in bloom, soft and red as a heart hold me too close and i will fall apart but how would i know? it’s all a test i feel like i always second guess but love’s a joke with no chance to laugh before it all burns into ash burns into ash burns into ash ash, ash, ash, ash but how would i know? it’s all a test i feel like i always second guess but love’s a joke with no chance to laugh before it all burns into ash
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i run away from my problems i run away from the truth i run away from what’s good for me but i can’t run away from you i run away from my problems i run away from the truth i run away from what’s good for me but i can’t run away from you run tell your friends it was nice to meet them but they’re not for me there’s nothing wrong with them it’s just my social anxiety :/ i don’t say much out loud cuz im always thinking get you all alone and, mmm mmm mmm, run away with me run i know you’re poison ivy don’t you wanna sting me? my hot thoughts burning up like lava inside of me come on let me burn you come on let me burn you come on let me burn you come on let me burn you run

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The Aquadolls were founded in January 2012 by Melissa Brooks, the lead singer and writer of the band. Melissa began recording bedroom demos of her songs and released The Aquadolls 'We Are Free EP' in early 2013, their debut album 'Stoked On You' in December, and the self released "The Dream and The Deception" on Brooks' label Aqua Babe Records in fall 2018, with Keilah Nina and Jackie Proctor. ... more

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