the dream and the deception

by the aquadolls

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released November 8, 2018

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The Aquadolls were founded in Janurary 2012 by Melissa Brooks, the lead singer and writer of the band. Melissa began recording bedroom demos of her songs and eventually formed a relationship with Southern-California based indie label Burger Records who released The Aquadolls 'We Are Free EP' in early 2013, and their debut album 'Stoked On You' in December. ... more

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Track Name: hollywood
mama told me that someday i’d be a star

if i believe in myself, i’d go really far

all my life you pushed and pushed on me

hoping that someday i would become something

but all i wanna see is my name up in shiny lights in hollywood

and all i wanna feel is the sun shining down my back in hollywood

i wanna turn on the television and see

my music video playing on mtv

i’d have a celebration and make sure that you’re there

cuz i know that you always cared

you always cared

but all i wanna see is my name up in shiny lights in hollywood

and all i wanna feel is the sun shining down my back in hollywood

i always knew that if i followed my heart

i could make you proud

you knew from the very start

the very start

but all i wanna see is my name up in shiny lights in hollywood

and all i wanna feel is the sun shining down my back in hollywood

and all i wanna see is your face smiling back at me in hollywood

and all i want you to know is that i did this for you

to make you proud of me in hollywood
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Track Name: euphoria
There’s a tingling inside my body
I feel in running through my veins
My heart is beating like an earthquake
I know I’m not alone I can’t be
The only one who feels this way
My pulse is rushin’ like a roulette
With your faults, and my faults
How did we ever get this far
We fall down, get back up
I promise you’re a shining star

Up in the sky
so high
on life
in love with myself and i’m good
Yeah I’m
in love
with myself and I’m good
Can’t stop this feeling, yeah it’s rushing through my veins
And once it hits my brain I feel a little more sane
I’m good, yeah I’m in love with this Euphoria

It doesn’t always come so easy
Some times I wanna blow my brains outside of the park on a Monday
I remind myself to open my eyes
Not everything I see is good
But that’s the whole point of life
With your faults, and my faults
How did we ever get this far
We fall down, get back up
And dust yourself off

Up in the sky
so high
on life
in love with myself and i’m good
Yeah I’m
in love
with myself and I’m good
Can’t stop this feeling, yeah it’s rushing through my veins
And once it hits my brain I feel a little more sane
I’m good, yeah I’m in love with this Euphoria

Up in the sky
so high
on life
in love with myself and i’m good
Yeah I’m
in love
with myself and I’m good
Can’t stop this feeling, yeah it’s rushing through my veins
And once it hits my brain I feel a little more sane
I’m good, yeah I’m in love with this Euphoria
Track Name: ruby eyes
all i wanna do is be your girl
and all i wanna do is smile every time you come around
but then i get tired and weak, no energy
and then i wanna quit, give you up
in time but i can’t

cuz now im in too deep
can’t swim around it, im in defeat
cuz now im falling way too fast for those little ruby eyes
little ruby eyes

all i wanna do is light you up, my love
and all i wanna feel is the pain inside melt away
but when im with you
you’re the poison oak that stings
you give me life, then in minutes
it all fades away

cuz now im in too deep
can’t swim around it, im in defeat
cuz now im falling way too fast for those little ruby eyes
little ruby eyes

oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh

cuz now im in too deep
can’t swim around it, im in defeat
though i am falling way too fast
you can’t have a future when you’re looking back
i need to breathe you in for a little peace
it’s only temporary, a small release
i wanna stop but i can’t give up on those little ruby eyes
little ruby eyes
little ruby eyes
those little ruby eyes
Track Name: perfect
bleach blonde beauty queen lickin her lips
the reflection in her mirror smiles back
daydreams of hollywood and big shiny lights
she longs for glamorous days and star-studded nights

put your glitter on
it’s gonna happen, tell yourself it’s gonna happen
put your smile on
it’s gonna happen, tell yourself it’s gonna happen
cuz she’s always been told no, no, no
but soon, she’ll be the star of the show, show, show
put your perfect on
it’s gonna happen, tell yourself it’s gonna happen

bleach blonde beauty queen looks back on her past
she would sing her songs followed by a monstrous laugh
mascara would run down her pretty lil face
light a cigarette, pain is all in the past

put your glitter on
it’s gonna happen, tell yourself it’s gonna happen
put your smile on
it’s gonna happen, tell yourself it’s gonna happen
cuz she’s always been told no, no, no
but soon, she’ll be the star of the show, show, show
put your perfect on
it’s gonna happen, tell yourself it’s gonna happen

put your glitter on
it’s gonna happen, tell yourself it’s gonna happen
put your smile on
it’s gonna happen, tell yourself it’s gonna happen
cuz she’s always been told no, no, no
but soon, she’ll be the star of the show, show, show
put your perfect on
it’s gonna happen, tell yourself it’s gonna happen tonight
Track Name: im a star
im a star
im a star
im a star star star
im a star
im a star
im a star star star
hey!
Track Name: do my own thing
tell me what you want
what you wanna see
what you wanna get out of me
and everywhere i go
everything i do
has to be okay with you
but now, i’m sick and tired
of my energy being
wasted on you
i gotta be myself
let me do me and you can do you

i know you want me to be
as perfect as i can be
but i gotta do my own thing (own thing)
i’m an individual
also irreplaceable
so just let me do my own thing (own thing)
la di da da da di da da da dada
gotta do my own thing (own thing)
la di da da da di da da da dada
just let me do my own thing (own thing)

every single night every single day
i’m fighting this war in my brain
but i’ll suck it up
think that it’s okay
laugh it off my head has gone insane
and when you think of me
I want you to see
all the time I wasted on you
I gotta be myself
let me do me and
you can do you, oh!

i know you want me to be
as perfect as i can be
but i gotta do my own thing (own thing)
i’m an individual
also irreplaceable
so just let me do my own thing (own thing)
la di da da da di da da da dada
gotta do my own thing (own thing)
la di da da da di da da da dada
just let me do my own thing (own thing)

my, my own thing, hey ey
oh oh oh

i know you want me to be
as perfect as i can be
but i gotta do my own thing
oh oh oh oh

i know you want me to be
as perfect as i can be
but i gotta do my own thing (own thing)
i’m an individual
also irreplaceable
so just let me do my own thing (own thing)
la di da da da di da da da dada
gotta do my own thing (own thing)
la di da da da di da da da dada
just let me do my own thing (own thing)
hey ey
Track Name: troubled valentine
Flickin’ my pale blonde hair through my hands
I’m thinking about you
Lickin' my cherry lips, I see our toes in the sand
My fingertips on you
I’m pretty sure that you’re insecure,
But I can try to make you feel complete
You know I’m bad, but baby don’t be sad
I promise you’ll be hanging on the edge of your seat

Could you ever love a girl like me?
A pretty little mess me
If I put my painted fingers on you, you’ll be mine
I’ll be your troubled valentine, oh

La la la la la la la la la
Oh oh oh oh oh
La la la la la la la la la
Oh oh oh oh oh

Laying in bed with high heels on
I’m thinking about you
In the mirror I put mascara on, but always waterproof
Cuz you don’t know, in fact, I never show
That every night I cry myself to sleep
You know I’m bad, but baby don’t be sad
I promise we can make each other feel complete

Could you ever love a girl like me?
A pretty little mess me
If I put my painted fingers on you, you’ll be mine
I’ll be your troubled valentine, oh

La la la la la la la la la
Oh oh oh oh oh
La la la la la la la la la
Oh oh oh oh oh

Could you ever love a girl like me?
A pretty little mess me
If I pull on your strings, will you be mine?
I’ll be your dirty angel pie, oh
Could you ever love a girl like me?
A pretty little wild child just like me
If I put my painted fingers on you, you’ll be mine
I’ll be your troubled valentine, oh

La la la la la la la la la
Oh oh oh oh oh
La la la la la la la la la
Oh oh oh oh oh
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Track Name: bleach
heartbreaker, move it or lose it, before i lose my shit
you tried to run off with the pieces of my heart
but you ran too slow, so i catch up with it
stomach bender, you make me sick
fucked me up once, didn’t have to think twice
to end it all say its done be a dick then be nice
fake it and lie and pretend were as cool as ice
yeah right

i’m gonna make sure that you bleed like i bled
swallow the words you said
life in torture’s worse than being dead
cut the shirts you lent me into crop tops
yeah, i’ll knock your socks off (with a blow torch instead)
fucking with you’s worse than being dead

a heart breaker’s favorite beverage is ice cold bleach
with a side of bitch and a shot of whine served on ice, neat!
it’s mighty fine the way you feel with you drink it down
you okay? what’s with the frown?
legs upside down, now you’re on the ground
wake up hon’ you’ve had a long, long rest
while you were out, i did something to your head
i cut tiny little pieces of your heart right out of your chest
now every time you think of me, you won’t forget, no

i’m gonna make sure that you bleed like i bled
swallow the words you said
life in torture’s worse than being dead
cut the shirts you lent me into crop tops
yeah, i’ll knock your socks off (with a blow torch instead)
fucking with you’s worse than being dead

fuck you, you piece of shit
you think you’re hot, but you aren’t shit
not even flies and maggots would flock to you
grosser than the bottom of my beat up shoe
scum and dirt, a rat at best
you wear lace thongs underneath your dress
do you even have a heart beating in your chest?
vomit and bile, you’re vile at best!
a scaredy-cat douche bag, you turned out like the rest
look in the mirror, can’t you tell you’re a mess?
yeah you wrecked it, how could i forget it
the deed is done, no way to fix it
i can’t believe i ever fucked with you
you’re a crazy little chicken who escaped from the coup
wastoid junkie sitting on a fence
tryna make a dollar out of fifteen cents
(fart noise)


i’m gonna make sure that you bleed like i bled
swallow the words you said
life in torture’s worse than being dead
cut the shirts you lent me into crop tops
yeah, i’ll knock your socks off (with a blow torch instead)
fucking with you’s worse than being dead

la dee da dee da
la dee da dee da
ooh ooh
ooh ooh ooh ooh
Track Name: blurry
i feel so many emotions i can’t put them all on paper
(oh oh oh oh oh)
if you feel the same way, find me now, i’ll thank you later
(oh oh oh oh oh)
freaky like a fox, slimy like an alligator
i said i wanna kick it but you said you’re not a dater
go figure player, player
(oh oh oh oh oh)
i keep sipping on the liquor and it goes down quicker
(oh oh oh oh oh)
while i’m all alone drowning all my thoughts out
(oh oh oh oh oh)
in this jack and coke, cloud my head with jokes
fill my lungs with smoke, and get blurry blurry

get blurry
get blurry
get blurry
get blurry, blurry, get blurry
oh oh oh oh oh
oh oh oh oh oh
oh oh oh oh oh
get blurry, blurry, get blurry

laying in my bed in the dark at six o’clock
(oh oh oh oh oh)
you don’t wanna come around the mess you left behind, no
(oh oh oh oh oh)
cloud my head with jokes
fill my lungs with smoke
chase that drink with coke
and get blurry, blurry

get blurry
get blurry
get blurry
get blurry, blurry, get blurry
oh oh oh oh oh
oh oh oh oh oh
oh oh oh oh oh
get blurry, blurry, get blurry

hey hey hey hey hey
hey hey hey hey hey
hey hey hey hey hey
get blurry, blurry, get blurry

oh oh oh oh oh
oh oh oh oh oh
oh oh oh oh oh
get blurry, blurry, get blurry

hey hey hey hey hey
hey hey hey hey hey
hey hey hey hey hey
get blurry, blurry, get blurry
Track Name: toy
Late at night, I’m all alone
Stretched out in bed, nobody’s home
So I call you up on the phone (my toy)
Come on down, I’m in a rush
To make myself get that rush
With you, oh hush, let’s go

Dance alone in my bedroom
My shining toy’s kisses shoot me to the moon
I’m having the best time ever
I wanna stay like this forever
Only with you have I felt so good
My shining toy, better than anyone could
I’m looking in your eyes and it feels just right
This could forever, but forever is just tonight

Friday was fun, but now I’m bored with you
Find me a toy shiny and new
Hey baby, wanna get used? (my toy)
Give me a fix, bring me back up
No strings attached on this puppet
That’s what I like best about you
Now don’t be shy, you are my muse

Dance alone in my bedroom
My shining toy’s kisses shoot me to the moon
I’m having the best time ever
I wanna stay like this forever
Only with you have I felt so good
My shining toy, better than anyone could
I’m looking in your eyes and it feels just right
This could forever, but forever is just tonight

Dance alone in my bedroom
My shining toy’s kisses shoot me to the moon
I’m having the best time ever
I wanna stay like this forever
Only with you have I felt so good
My shining toy, better than anyone could
I’m looking in your eyes and it feels just right
This could forever, but forever is just tonight
Track Name: just4kicks
quit wasting all your time on me
i’m not falling for you
pick your jaw up off the floor please
you’re not any good news
i know you do this just for kicks
just to fuck with us girls
but we won’t take your shit
we’ll laugh at you and you can go sing the blues
la la la
la la la
la la la la la la la la

oh lover boy
i see you feeding through your eyes
but it’s not worth my time
i am not a toy
to be picked up and played with and put down
really not amused
in fact, i’m quite pissed off that you whistled at me
it’s not a compliment
if i feel creeped out and wanna punch you in the face

quit wasting all your time on me
i’m not falling for you
pick your jaw up off the floor please
you’re not any good news
i know you do this just for kicks
just to fuck with us girls
but we won’t take your shit
we’ll laugh at you and you can go sing the blues
la la la
la la la
la la la la la la la la

la la la
la la la
la la la la la la la la
Track Name: sick sad motherfuck
sick sad motherfuck
sick sad motherfuck
sick sad motherfuck
sick sad motherfuck
i can’t live with this depression
too much anger too much stress and
too much pressure, go away
yet i want it all to stay
feeling weak, dumb, pathetic
easy to lose your head in it
i don’t deserve all this sadness
i don’t deserve all this sadness
Track Name: in my pocket
You seem like the perfect candidate to break my heart
It’s masochistic, I knew you would hurt me from the start
I keep slipping into daydreams where were laying in your room
And we’re playing songs together on guitar, my moody muse
I’ve never seen a smile so true it glows
And I know we just met, but I wanna take your soul home with me

In my pocket,
Your hands are there
In my pocket,
So good we’ll make the people stare
In my pocket,
I’ll hold onto your heart and keep it safe
In my pocket,
To store your love, there’s no better place
I hope you don’t get sick of my face
But first and foremost, we should go on a date
Oom pa pa, oom pa pa, oom pa pa di da oom pa pa hm

I keep checking on my phone to see if it’s you
I know you’re not the type of guy to show your feelings first,
But it’s worse when you build walls up
It hurts, but I knew from the beginning that this feeling would burst
I’m sick of being someone else’s secret
I gave my all to them and we fell apart
I’m crazy, fall fast, die young, live forever
You’re a stranger to me I wanna get to know you better

In my pocket,
Your hands are there
In my pocket,
So good we’ll make the people stare
In my pocket,
I’ll hold onto your heart and keep it safe
In my pocket,
To store your love, there’s no better place
I hope you don’t get sick of my face
But first and foremost, we should go on a date
Oom pa pa, oom pa pa, oom pa pa di da oom pa pa hm

Ooh ooh ooh
Ooh ooh ooh
Ooh ooh

In my pocket,
Your hands are there
In my pocket,
So good we’ll make the people stare
In my pocket,
I’ll hold onto your heart and keep it safe
In my pocket,
To store your love, there’s no better place than
In my pocket,
Your hands are there
In my pocket,
So good we’ll make the people stare
In my pocket,
I’ll hold onto your heart and keep it safe
In my pocket,
To store your love, there’s no better place
I hope you don’t get sick of my face
But first and foremost, we should go on a date
Oom pa pa, oom pa pa, oom pa pa di da oom pa pa hm
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Track Name: cigboi
when i hit you up, you don’t text back
you won’t even open up my snap
every time i smell a cigarette i think of you and how you’re gone
you like the 90’s and i dig your style
but you’re not down to go the extra mile
maybe someday, you will realize i could have been the one

i keep on beating myself up
not what i intended to do, but
i got a bad case of real tough luck
i keep on beating myself up
it’s an illusion, i know i can do better, but
i want you so bad and you don’t want me, tough luck

i tried to snatch you up, i did my best
i even followed all the stupid steps
batting my eyelashes, playing hard-to-get, acting like i don’t care
that wasn’t me, i swear i didn’t want
to fuck it up, but now the deed is done
who’s hand am i gonna hold now? oh god

i keep on beating myself up
not what i intended to do, but
i got a bad case of real tough luck
i keep on beating myself up
it’s an illusion, i know i can do better, but
i want you so bad and you don’t want me, tough luck

i keep on beating myself up
it’s an illusion, i know i can do better, but
i want you so bad and you don’t want me, tough luck
Track Name: the mess
truly i am something special
with my greasy hair and scabbed knees
to open my eyes to everything
and take it in for all that it seems
all that it seems

i make wishes, i make wishes every night
at the same time, waiting for something good to happen
i’m unlucky, i’m unlucky every time and now
i’m broke sleeping all alone every night
got no money, i got no money left, but i hope i get by
rather be broke and happy, than get rich and die inside
but yet i die inside

you don’t know, you don’t know the mess that i’m in
dig me out, dig me out i don’t wanna go back again
got nothing left, nothing left but a pocket full of memories
i pull them out, pull them out but never find peace

what is special to your belief?
the dollar signs, or the hole that you sleep in
side of us all, inside of us all, inside of us all

you don’t know, you don’t know the mess that i’m in
if i was gone, if i was gone, would anyone give a shit?
got nothing left, nothing left but a pocket full of memories
i pull them out, pull them out but never find peace
no, no i don't
Track Name: meetme
hey there, your eyes looked good in the light at the concert
do you wanna hurt me?
i could read your mind from the way you smiled
it was so obvious, i knew that you liked me
ooh, liked me

you’re not from this scene
you’re a gem caught between all the other squares
let’s go see a movie
but you’re a cool guy and you’ve got a life
you’re busy with your work and school
but all i do is think of you
you, of you, all i do is think of you

i wish i had super powers
to make you communicate the truth
no matter the circumstances
i just want someone to be real with me
for once in my life, this little hand of mine
ain’t gonna hold itself tonight
come make this right and meet with me tonight
tonight, although nothing’s wrong, come make this right
and meet me

ever since the first night that we met
i think of you every fucking day, i’m crazy
and when you don’t text me back right away
i think that you’re fucking with somebody else
i’m nuts
i’m nuts, oh oh i’m nuts, nuts
it’s been a whole day since we talked
and i sent that double message, so i gotta wait for you now
this stupid game sucks, i just wanna go
out on a date with you, but there’s too much going on for you
for you, there’s too much going on for you, and you’re just so busy

i wish i had super powers
to make you communicate the truth
no matter the circumstances
i just want someone to be real with me
for once in my life, this little hand of mine
ain’t gonna hold itself tonight
come make this right and meet with me tonight
tonight, although nothing’s wrong, come make this right
and meet me
Track Name: communicationissexy/idkhow2communicate
Do you like me or do you even care
About me at all? I still haven’t washed the underwear
I wore when we hooked up outside my house in your
Car after the concert, we didn’t get far
Did I seem like an amateur? I didn’t know what to
Do, I was so nervous
It was because I liked you
But I’d rather have awkward convo than hook up with you
I guess it’s kinda fun, but all I can think is how

All I really want is somebody to talk to
All I really want is somebody to talk to
All I really want is somebody to talk to
All I really want is somebody
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Communication is sexy, I don’t know how to communicate
Dating sucks, it’s a fucked up world, no one ever asks me out on dates
I know I’m fine
It’s not me, but its me, it’s me
It’s fucking me
I know I need to spend more time by myself
Love myself, gotta love me, but

All I really want is somebody to talk to
All I really want is somebody to talk to
All I really want is somebody to talk to
All I really want is somebody
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

All I really want is somebody to talk to
All I really want is somebody to talk to
All I really want is somebody to talk to
All I really want is somebody
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Track Name: burns2ash
i was too afraid of saying the wrong things
so i just kept my mouth shut
but when you don’t say anything at all
that’s when they start to let you go

but how would i know?
it’s all a test
i feel like i
always second guess
but love’s a joke
with no chance to laugh
before it all
burns into ash

i like you, but i don’t know how to say
it without making you go away
i’m a rose in bloom, soft and red as a heart
hold me too close and i will fall apart

but how would i know?
it’s all a test
i feel like i
always second guess
but love’s a joke
with no chance to laugh
before it all
burns into ash

burns into ash
burns into ash
ash, ash, ash, ash

but how would i know?
it’s all a test
i feel like i
always second guess
but love’s a joke
with no chance to laugh
before it all
burns into ash
Track Name: runaway (the jam)
i run away from my problems
i run away from the truth
i run away from what’s good for me
but i can’t run away from you
i run away from my problems
i run away from the truth
i run away from what’s good for me
but i can’t run away from you
run

tell your friends it was nice to meet them
but they’re not for me
there’s nothing wrong with them
it’s just my social anxiety :/
i don’t say much out loud cuz im always thinking
get you all alone and, mmm mmm mmm, run away with me
run

i know you’re poison ivy
don’t you wanna sting me?
my hot thoughts burning up like lava inside of me
come on let me burn you
come on let me burn you
come on let me burn you
come on let me burn you
run

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